You know how they are always saying that insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results? Do you think they realize that saying that over and over will just keep driving people crazy!!! Because let's face it sometimes doing things over and over and expecting different results is called patience!
It's a fine line between between patient and stubborn. And which side am I on? I am always checking. I've learned that patience feels different than stubborness. Patience feels like things are changing but so very slowly that you can not see the quanta of change.
Like once I was at the Grand Canyon watching the sun set and I could see that the shadows were moving but I could never see them move.
Of course maybe I was just distracted by the Coke-drinking cookie-eating foursome recounting that day's episode of Ellen, segment by segment by... oh God and now the sun has set.
That's how patience feels. Stubborness hurts. All I want. No what is. All try. No flow.
And the way out of stubborness is to experiment. Go a different way. Think a different thought. Use a different word. Try a different lipstick. Eat a different breakfast.
Some people call it life hacking. Some people call it tweaking things. Some people call it change.
Change is the most loaded of these words. We all know it's hard to change. Changing makes you unhappy. But you have to change in order to be happy. Life is change.
So in order to be happy you have to be unhappy! What?!
I think it's easier to think of it as being open (see TWISERN!) than changing. When i was going through my own page 90 low point a few years ago I tried everything. New projects, redecorating, meditating. The one thing I didn't try was admitting that my life wasn;t working.
Luckily, that's when we were evicted. And so we did an experiment and made a radical change. Bought a house in VELA (Very East LA - you might know it as Palm Springs).
People ask us how we like Palm Springs. But it's not so much whether we like it here. We like bouncing back and forth. The movement. The not feeling stuck. The openess. The experimental part.
Experiment is connected to experience. And from the time I heard Jimi Hendrix ask me if I was experienced I knew I wanted to be. I just read that Jimi Hendrix believed he was a messenger from elsewhere. Sounds true. I'm going to experiment with believing it. With believing there is an elsewhere. To bounce back and forth between. Patiently!
xoxo
b
It's a fine line between between patient and stubborn. And which side am I on? I am always checking. I've learned that patience feels different than stubborness. Patience feels like things are changing but so very slowly that you can not see the quanta of change.
Like once I was at the Grand Canyon watching the sun set and I could see that the shadows were moving but I could never see them move.
Of course maybe I was just distracted by the Coke-drinking cookie-eating foursome recounting that day's episode of Ellen, segment by segment by... oh God and now the sun has set.
That's how patience feels. Stubborness hurts. All I want. No what is. All try. No flow.
And the way out of stubborness is to experiment. Go a different way. Think a different thought. Use a different word. Try a different lipstick. Eat a different breakfast.
Some people call it life hacking. Some people call it tweaking things. Some people call it change.
Change is the most loaded of these words. We all know it's hard to change. Changing makes you unhappy. But you have to change in order to be happy. Life is change.
So in order to be happy you have to be unhappy! What?!
I think it's easier to think of it as being open (see TWISERN!) than changing. When i was going through my own page 90 low point a few years ago I tried everything. New projects, redecorating, meditating. The one thing I didn't try was admitting that my life wasn;t working.
Luckily, that's when we were evicted. And so we did an experiment and made a radical change. Bought a house in VELA (Very East LA - you might know it as Palm Springs).
People ask us how we like Palm Springs. But it's not so much whether we like it here. We like bouncing back and forth. The movement. The not feeling stuck. The openess. The experimental part.
Experiment is connected to experience. And from the time I heard Jimi Hendrix ask me if I was experienced I knew I wanted to be. I just read that Jimi Hendrix believed he was a messenger from elsewhere. Sounds true. I'm going to experiment with believing it. With believing there is an elsewhere. To bounce back and forth between. Patiently!
xoxo
b
